Thursday, December 11, 2008

Taking a few deep breaths...

Sorry I've been a little MIA lately... I know I've gotten a bit bad about blogging. Not only have I gotten bad about blogging, I've gotten bad about responding to all my blog emails! (if you've written, sorry, I'm not ignoring you and will try to respond soon!)

I have a good excuse for it. I've been a bit under the weather. I wish it was a cold but have had some health problems as of late that needed immediate assistance. I can't even tell you how many pokes and prodding I've gotten in the last few weeks and it all ended with a minor surgery. I'm better now and while it wasn't life threatening, it's left me drained and a bit mentally unglued. Usually I'm rather chill (at least I hope I am...) but lately, life's curve balls are a little harder to take.

I guess what I'm just tired of this year. As much as I've thrown myself into the holidays (decorated the entire house by December 4) and even wrapped the majority of my presents except for the ones I haven't bought yet for the hubby, I'm just done with this year. This whole health problem was just the icing of this day-old moldy cupcake that you can call 2008.

What a great year it should have been... first year of marriage but it's like if there was some "test of strength" that could be thrown at us, we had it. We lost a sibling this year, had our roof cave in during the "stormy season," sister-in-law in critical condition, lost a family member's house in the fires, had a cousin go through a horrible pregnancy only to lose one of her babies and have her other one have surgery and live in the hospital for a few's like the list goes on and on! I think if anything I'm angry for all these things happening. All these bad moments overshadowed some great ones, one of best friend's beautiful wedding, an amazing Caribbean vacation, and lots of running weekends with my other BFFs. Now, it's December and I find myself just taking deep breaths and counting down the days till the holidays, hoping everything will be okay and we can make one final happy memory for this year.

So, while I'm going to try to keep the rest of the year's post more upbeat, I think I just needed to one little post to vent and say I'm tired of 2008 and now it's time for me to look forward and hope 2009 will bring the yang of happiness to the yin of this year's hardships.

Okay... don't venting... thanks for listening!